I title this blog Take 2 because I posted earlier this week on facebook regarding matters of social distancing when I was not in the head space to be writing or posting.
I stand by the content, I redact the attitude.
And, in the vein of honesty, Take 2 could be applied to numerous moments of my week. Maybe you could relate to this as well?
I felt loved when my friend Christa and I sent hilarious memes back and forth about how awesomely successful we were in our parenting this week (not). She has a teenager with needs and will be my forever hero.
We titled this curation, ‘Today’s Going to Be a Great Day…’
One meme was of a woman hugging a vat of popcorn who proceeds to leap, leap, throw the popcorn in the air, and face-plant on the carpet of a crowded movie theater lobby.
Another meme was of a man who cannon-balled into a deep blue pool...only to bounce off the ice in his Speedo.
And still another…a woman in roller blades and a smile ready to attack her day, trips and rolls thrice down her front walkway, air diving into the yard.
Ahh, the healing balm of all things memes.
I will save you the sob story of daily potty accidents, homeschool throw downs, and every 3 minute on-the-dot interruptions. Because, really, these aren’t sob stories at all...they're just the real, messy things of my life...the byproduct of the amazing, beautiful human that I have the privilege of mommying.
The bigger issue of the hour are the actual sob stories...the nearly filled hospital, the overtaxed nurses, doctors, grocers, postal workers...etc…
The issues of furloughs, the evaporation of Q2 incomes within hours.
The issues of actual sickness and death.
It’s no wonder that I haven’t slept through the night in weeks. I can exercise, eat clean, drink water, read, journal, talk it out...but it really doesn’t matter that this really doesn’t fix things. These are scary and uncharted times. It’s okay that our stress comes out sideways, how could it honestly not?
So here’s my actual contribution today...in the midst of failing forward, of learning how to balance work and parenting, of figuring out new rhythms…
I want to pull back the curtain on Quarantine bucket lists and Push up Challenges…
I have been anxious. I have been frustrated. As a person who thrives on structure, I have been so mentally scattered that I sometimes can’t figure out where to start.
But, I have also loved the moments of family togetherness, schedule slowness, and the universal mission of pushing through.
Today, I have no answers. All I can hope to do is to ease your burden by letting you know that as a person who values being intentional, making progress, and doing things with excellence...this week has kicked my butt.
I will brush off the dust, stand up, and start again...becasue I have the gift of a new day, and the graces of people that stay near by on the days that I struggle…and not just becasue they legally have to.
May the Lord Bless You and Keep You.
Me.